39 secrets about yourself.

I found this 'note' thing my brother noodles filled out in his facebook... and since i'm bored out of my mind (while i wait for something to download on my msn), i decided to kill time by filling one out myself.

p/s: most of these things aren't even what i call as secrets... but yeah... if you're bored, you can read it too... cheers

1. Have you ever been asked out? yes
2. Where was your default picture (on facebook) taken? paris
3. What's your middle name? don't have one
4. Your current relationship status? neither married nor engaged :-)
5. Does your crush like you back? uhh yes, i think so
6. What is your current mood? bitchy. cos my back hurts and i got a splitting headache. hehehe kidding kidding. i'm content. don't ask me why. (nothin to do with anythin kinky okay)
7. What is the colour of the underwear you're wearing? blue with white stripes
8. What is the colour of the shirt you're wearing? not a shirt, but a dress. brown one.
9. Missing something? actually, i miss how good it felt riding my ninja... maybe cos right now i wanna sell the landrover. hehe
10. If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do? i wouldn't change a thing. everything happens for a reason.
11. If you must be an animal for a day, what? a cat. pissing all over the expensive couch. eat like there's no tomorrow. and scratch people i don't like. but then again, i do that now anyway (except the pissing on the couch bit) LOL
12. Ever had a near death experience? yes once. car accident... the 'what if' question came to mind.. a lot!
13. Something you do a lot? hibernate
14. The song stuck in your head? lily allen's 'fuck you very much'
15. Who did you copy and paste this from? my brother noodles
16. Name someone with the same birthday as you. a bloke named Azwa
17. When was the last time you cried? last night. over something utterly silly.
18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? nope.
19. If you could have one superpower, what would it be? read people's minds. or even better telepathically make them think what i want them to think... hehe. none of that psychic-i-know-what's-going-to-happen-next crap. cos you kinda get this skill anyways
20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? height and smile. a tall guy with perfectly straight white teeth... mmm gorgeous!
21. What do you usually order from Starbucks? some rasberry drink thing and a marble loaf.
22. What's your biggest secret? as if i would tell duhhhhh nice try. everyone has secrets...
23. Favourite colour? red and pink
24. Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows? no. but i still have episodes of akazukin cha cha on my hard drive, i donno why i even still have them! LOL
25. What's on your walls? pics of me and the people i love. and paintings.
26. What are you? human
27. Do you speak any other language? malay
28. What's your favourite smell? the smell of freshly washed bed sheets
29. Describe your life in one word. Incomplete. (I haven't done everything i wanna do yet)
30. Have you ever kissed in the rain? yes. then i got sick. what a downer.
31. What are you thinking about right now? 'damn, i just ate. why am i still hungry?' LOL
32. What should you be doing? some pending reports. but i'm like... nahhh. too lazy.
33. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry? a wannabe who thinks he's born on this earth to be a living God (refer to blog post below).
34. How often do you talk to God? not as often as i would like. i should talk to God everyday, but i always forget. unless i'm in big trouble... or need something. sigh i should talk to God often. will try harder.
35. Do you like working in the yard? nope. me and worms don't get along very well. kidding! no time really. my plants inside the house are already dead, i don't think i should kill all the plants outside too!
36. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want? Something cool. like Banks. or Powers. Austin Powers? hahaha well im happy with my first and last name.
37. Do you act differently around the person you like? yeah. but then i act like myself around the person i love. i think it's only natural, no? :-)
38. What is your natural hair colour? truly black.
39. Who was the last person to make you cry? someone with a name starting with the letter A. :-) but it's all good now. just a silly misunderstanding.

The Verdict.

Yes.. the forbidden fruit is always sweeter.
But how long can it keep you interested?

The Forbidden Fruit is always sweeter.

You want things that you can't have.. and you don't want it when it's not in demand. Could this be true? This week i'm putting this theory to the test. Do I want this thing that I can't have? especially when it's the total opposite of what i'm looking for or used to... i'm almost afraid to find out that it could be too good to be true.. at the same time, i can't help but think that all this could just very well be a wonderful dream. Then! if that's the case, i hope i don't ever wake up from it! LOL.

Things are getting interesting, indeed.

You're not all that.

I find it highly annoying when people bully you into making decisions that have no bearing what-so-ever on their own lives. We like to refer to these individuals as pushy, bossy, know-it-all... but my favourite one is 'wannabe'. Wannabes think the world revolves around them and think they are born on this earth to be Gods. Get real, bro.

As far as i'm concerned, you shouldn't give any advice when you are in no position to do so. Do you have the first hand experience, the knowledge and intelligence to do so? If you are so perfect in your perfect little world, then why are you still slaving for an organisation which thinks lesser of you than the rest of us mere mortals? You would be living the dream right now otherwise. Anyways, fine. You can give some advice on what you think should be done, but no way in hell should you force these thoughts onto others. I will take it if I think it's worth doing, and won't if i didnt think it was the right thing to do. and why do you have this look on your face when i tell you off? shocking. i've mentioned this in my blog a few times before too, if i do in fact make a mistake, then let it be a mistake for ME to make. we are humans after all.

Things are getting purtyy HOT in Geneva.. :-)

summer is here.. the weather is nice. the seductresses are on the prowl. it's hunting season... and mating season, for some. LOL. as for me, since i'm a good gurl and all... i'm going on holiday instead. looking forward to the castle-like hotels... cool pool... evening strolls... taking pictures... enjoying ice-cream... relaxing massages... maybe even paint.

just a few more days to go.

Look out.

Always leave loved ones with loving words,

it may be the last time you see them.

Always keep your words soft and sweet,

just in case you have to eat them.

Japan here we come!

Congratulations, Sir Nosferatus! you're going to Japan soon!! we are all so, so proud of you. I'm coming to visit!! You gotta take me to all the cool places..! hehehe

hey i'm trying to get my pic taken here, sis! excusseeee meee LOL

Plans. Plans. Plans.

Everybody got plans, God has plans. I got plans... but! i've never really sat down and thought about it! LOL. i have no clue as to where i DO want to be... but i have a general idea of where i DON'T want to be... hahaha that's a start!

i remember being so frustrated in uni... cos i couldn't decide which place suits me best.. in terms of working life, social life, family life... well, just life! for some who know me through and through... i think you've heard me hint about these things every now and then. now that i've worked in three different places (long term)... i can now make a reasonable judgment on what type of environment i am most comfortable in.

of course like everything else, nothing is set in concrete. anything can happen between this time of writing and say, a few months. God knows really. as for now, i'm enjoying my life... i love my family... my two best friends... and certain special people. you know who you are... i am blessed to meet you in this life... you have helped me get through with my own issues..

the times where you feel sorry for your little self is over. i think everyone goes through these stages in their lives. but there comes to a point where all the drama has to stop. you are going to be great! you will excel in whatever you put your heart and soul into. and unlike others, you will not self-destruct.. you're going to be a great alpha. heartless. cold. unpredictable. and yes, damn beautiful. people will love to hate you. LOL

now, that's a plan...

Out of Range.

Sorry y'all... no updates for this week. Got another delegation in town... so I will be off the radar for a couple of days...

Be proud of who you are.

People like to complain. Me included, of course! LOL. We say we have too much work. We're not making enough money. People don't appreciate us. Bla bla bla. So much drama. I say screw that! You're lucky to even have a job! To make SOME money! Who wants to appreciate you when you don't even appreciate yourself? Come on man, every one has their own battles to deal with... and the last thing they wanna do is to comfort you when you feel sorry for yourself.

When you fall off the horse, don't just sit there and wish, and hope, and pray, that someone will conveniently pass by and help you up. It doesn't work that way. GET UP, STAND TALL and PUSH YOURSELF UP.

Hell, cos I won't.

Patience is a virtue, especially for an Aries female.

The count down starts now... the answer will reveal itself... in due time. So I gotta use everything in my will power to refrain myself from chucking a fit.. LOL

Perfect Weekend.

Spending time with the people who matter most to you.. chilling at pool... laughin while watchin A Night at the Museum 2... nothin could be better.. As the cliche goes 'never tell your problems to anyone, 20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them..' I think there is some truth in this saying, and I wouldn't wanna bleed someone's ear out anyways on stupid things like... mourning for someone who you thought was The One. But I like to be positive. So I'm going to ignore it for now. I realise that no matter how big or small your problem is, there are always people around you who can help... and make you feel better, even if it's just for a little while.. I am now leaving everything to fate... Only time will tell what the future holds. I did what I could... and I lost something precious... If it comes back, it's meant to be... If not, TOUGH! You'll get over it. LOL. Apparently my recent posts were depressing... and so there needs to be a change in the air...

Here goes nothing...

On Hold.

Sorry y'all, no updates for my blog this week... It's the busiest time of the year.. Be back next week! God bless..

Aries.

Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge... EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse (easily angered). Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

A long life might not be good enough. But a good life is long enough.

No one likes to be second best. When you love someone, you love them for who they are. Not turn them into someone they're not. And know that the one you love will be the one you choose over all others. Only then... you can be truly happy. Only then... you will not look for comfort in others to fill the things you find missing in your life. Of course, you think that 'this isn't the life i expected it to be'... but... it should be BETTER than how you expected it to be! Life should be a journey..

...like a stairway to heaven...

Looking out for number one.

There is only so much... one can take. When the pressure is there, it is time to remove yourself out of it. Surround yourself around positive people. Wise people. The right people. Sometimes associating oneself with the wrong crowd can cloud your mind and your judgment. When you make a decision to do something, do it for yourself. Not for others. And if they care for you, they should understand and love you despite your actions. Remember too that certain 'friends' would love to see you fall.. Sure, some will say that you are going to make a mistake, but... let it be a mistake for YOU to make. It is your right. It is your life...

..the decision is yours..

Over.

Feel nothing. Neither love nor hate. This is when you know you have moved on. Only time will heal all wounds... and wipe all the blood off your hands. A crash course on how to survive life does not exist. Take a leap of faith. Nothing can stop you now. Freedom is within reach... the time to act is now.

It is now or never.

Emotional Rollercoaster.

Last week was a total mess.. but with luck and a bit of help from God (ok a lot), things panned out quite well. Life is unexpectedly beautiful. With the help of loved ones, you can move on with your life. So... Pictures of you and your phone number - deleted. Perfumes, and other material things reminding me of you - no longer matter. You are but a blurr memory in the furthest corner of my mind.

Finally... I can let go.

Happy Mother's Day.

Hi Mama, I'm dedicating this post for you... Happy Mama's Day!

Thank you for loving me all these years and for many years to come.

The boys and I thank God for having you in our lives...

Please forgive us for the times we have misbehaved and the times when you were misunderstood... all you did was love us.

You are patient, you are passionate,

you are the best mother anyone could ever ask for!

No one can ever replace you. No words can describe how much we love you... and we are not ashamed to admit it!

Love you, mum.

Have a great mother's day

xoxox

Love with no regrets.

Your home is where your heart is. Things have a way of working themselves out. 'Destiny is the bridge to the one you love'. So no matter where life takes you, if you're meant to be with that person, you will cross paths again. You will know what to do when the time comes. God will point you in the right direction. Follow your heart... and your mind. It is when these two become one, you realise that you have to be selfish and love yourself. It is impossible to please everyone around you. The most important thing now is to do things that will make you most happy and comfortable. Don't go against your gut feeling. Afterall, life is short and worrying excessively about the future will only destroy you.

As the cliche goes 'Imagine what you could do, if you knew you couldn't fail.' You are more powerful than you realise. Others see the potential in you. When you change yourself, you change the world around you. There is no substitute for your own passion. What you put into your life, is what you get out of it. Expect nothing less.

Perhaps being sad with the right people is better than being happy with the wrong ones. Complain to one who can help you and it helps to talk to people, but you know in the end, it is YOU who will decide for yourself what's best for you. At the same time, doing nothing is the best way to go nowhere. Don't deprive others of their own happiness.

If you really love someone, you let them be happy.... with or without you. Sometimes beauty can be such a curse, but it is what you do with it that makes a difference. 'All that glitters is not gold'. Take a chance on love. Take a chance on life. The great thing about being human is to be able to make mistakes and learn from it. No one is perfect but God. He who never made a mistake, never made a discovery.

When you are on dangerous grounds, your instincts will kick in and your armour will be ready. But know one thing, nothing is permanent but change. Your life will not turn out how you imagined it to be. It's a constant evolution. You become a better person for it. Live with no excuses and love with no regrets.

It's not whether you get knocked down, it's whether you get up again. Nothing in life worth having comes easy. You've been given a second life. You are no longer a lost soul, you finally belong. It's a great day to be alive. Cherish it. Relish the moment. Kill the whispers of evil in your mind. Don't take your eyes off the goal... and don't forget to laugh. Do something that scares you every day. You will learn something new about yourself that you didn't know before. Once you realise you can be the best of what you could be, there will be no turning back. Your dreams will become a reality.

Wow, this has got to be the longest post I've ever written in the history of my blog. (OMG I love bloggin').

This is for you... for closure... I hope and pray you find your inner peace... and... yourself.

She will haunt your dreams at night.

Beware of a woman

whose piercing eyes will cast you into a spell

lips that would shame the red, red rose

a heart as black as the night before you...

She whispers in your ear

'hell needs more of people like you...'

she sold her soul to the devil himself

in exchange for a few moments of true love...

her tormentor is her greatest master

and her foresight is the only one thing that scares her

she will overrun this earth, but

she knows it is better to reign in hell than to serve in heaven...

death is coming for her and those around her

she will forever suffer in silence

because she knows... that

she can never be free from this curse...

Thanks H for the clip. Sure made my day.

Haha!

International Day @ Caux-Palace, Swiss Hotel Management School

The staff and I went to Montreux, a sweet town an hour away from Geneva to visit our Bruneian student on the occasion of the school's International Day. Didn't expect it to be a grand affair so most of us went in jeans and a shirt..! The performances were great though... and so were the food! Cheers.

The wide... open roads

hi Adib!

Couldn't help but take a picture of this.. a car garage was having a sale.

Just arrived

Proud to have met you Hakim (left), best of luck!

Giah and her sis standing next to the Oz/UK/US stand. Uoohhh, lamingtons! Be right back guys.

Chilling

One of the cocktail stalls. All stalls are being judged by visitors.

In anticipation of the performances. Yes, we have to judge them too.

Of course we voted for South East Asia on Best Performance! Brunei, Malaysia and Indonesia joined forces for a Joget.

The rest of the artists... the students put their hearts and soul into it..

The finale

The Brunei Flag soars high.

On the way back home..

Eh? Ok we're lost.

Beautiful vineyards.

Loveleh

The End.

Stir fried chicken with cashew nuts.

My parents would be sooo proud of me for cooking this dish. For the first time, i managed to cook something without burning it, or burning myself while i'm at it! Yes! All is not lost - there is still hope for this girl hahaha

Your wings may be clipped but you can still fly.

Shed your old skin and come to the new light.

There is potential beyond anyone's comprehension.
Beat the thoughts of anxiety and worry.
Let there be blood in the hands of the innocent.

Drown the sorrows in the midst of the strong.
The moon will shine once more affecting all around it.
It is written in the stars. 'Whatever will be will be.'
Even death will have mercy and dance in the music of love.

Do not end the world.. because
God sent a dark angel to look over you..

Pool Tournament 2009 @ Sphere Billiards

For the first time in the ASEAN Sports and Family Day history, a pool tournament was held - proudly proposed and organised by Brunei Darussalam.

Congratulations to all winners - Cambodia for winning first and second place, and the Philippines for coming third.

As for the women's category, Brunei won first place (!!), followed by Indonesia and Singapore. A special thank you to the boss and all staff for making the tournament a great success!

Congratulations Ting Ting!

Congratulations on your engagement babe!

I will see you in April for your wedding and Nov for Meng's wedding.. *lols*

Hmm I'm the only cherry bom left... whaaaa? And remember we all thought i would get hitched first! haha no pressure! no pressure! right mum? Heeee...