It's all about the choices you make.

I just reconnected to someone i was with for 5 years.. and i realised a couple of things. 1) some things never change, 2) some couples are meant to be the best of friends and nothing more, and 3) no matter what you do, you cannot change how people feel about you. In my opinion, you should know by now when you're fighting a losing battle. Whether you lose weight, stop smoking, stop drinking or suddenly become a millionaire, they can only be interested in you for a short period of time. After that, they will revert back to their usual self. So! You have two options. 1) you accept the person for who they are, even if they treat you like shit, or 2) you leave and move on.

I choose option number two.

Why? Because i deserve better.

Everybody has secrets.

They just have different ways of hiding them. Some write it in a diary so it will forever be etched on paper and in memory. Some share it with the ones they trust... and some keep it to themselves and bring it to the grave. People who say they don't have any secrets are lying, for real. Even between Adam and Eve, the first lovers created on earth have secrets i'm sure. Sometimes when you love someone, you don't want to hurt their feelings by telling them the ultimate truth.

This... i learned the hard way.

ASFD 2009

Welcome to the ASEAN Sports & Family Day 2009










The opening ceremony.










The medals..









The Brunei tent.











The dream team in gold.




















The chef busy at work. Special thanks to edde for slaving over the bbq all day!














The thailand tent.










The vietnamese tent.










Myanmar - the organiser and host for the ASFD.









Brunei organised the drawing and colouring competition. Thanks to Hj Hj, Hjh Kam, Ainon & Saiful for helping.

The Ambassadors of Indonesia, Thailand and Myanmar.

Won gold, silver and bronze... :p

You know you tried your best for your country when your body aches all over.. LOL

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out..

There are two kinds of people. One which only look out for themselves and one which put other people's needs first before their own. I am lucky enough to be with both kinds of people, and even more grateful that I am close to those in the second group.

Don't get me wrong, it is perfectly fine to look out for number one. But you need to be around people who truly care for you and your well-being. There are friends out there who hang out with you because it's fun but leave the very moment they find something better.

Your true friends are those that stay with you not just during the fun times, but also during the bad, pathetic times... this i feel is the true test of friendship. A best friend is someone who brings out the best in me and is sincerely happy when i succeed in something.

My real friends accept me for who i am, know my shortcomings, but love me anyway.

A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.

This post is dedicated to the sweet one who gave me these gorgeous white roses... for no reason at all. It is very rare indeed to be on the receiving end of such thoughtful gestures... gros bisous! xoxox

Legendary.

wow, bloggers all over the world are posting up their comments and views on the recent passing away of Michael Jackson.. it is very sad indeed, but what i don't understand is why is everyone suddenly so sad? he was bashed mercilessly when he was still alive. does he have to die in order for everyone to start appreciating him? i, for one, have never said anything nasty about him...

i'm a big fan of britney spears too, and i hear people gossiping about her front left right and centre... does she have to leave this earth too in order to get the recognition she deserves for her work? surely it is not easy to be in her shoes. and i have full confidence that she will rise again to her former glory... and yes i feel for her too, because 1) she is easily misunderstood, 2) she is just as vulnerable as the next person and 3) she has the talent and will to reach her full potential... she just doesn't know it yet...

...now, it is time to transform yourself..

Happy birthday to Hj Hj and Edde..

Happy happy birthday to you both...

Many happy returns on this special day

and for many more years to come!

I bought you guys a cake but someone ate it all. i swear it wasn't me. LOL

This came with my new mouse.

I really don't understand what it means..? :-)

Megeve!

Just an hour away from Geneva, we found a sweet french town, Megeve.. Did the cheesy tourist thing... which i have to admit, i enjoyed very much... :-)

we stopped here to ask where the Megeve tourism office was..

the town itself is actually on a mountain..

the replica of the mountain - on display at the tourism office.

we sneaked quietly into a church to have a look...

what... terrible kids? :-)

sweet!

had nutella and banana filled crepes here... yum! there were more people inside

bumped into some old friends... hehe it's been a while...

a wedding took place at the same time

is that a scare crow? interesting

a nice place to chill after a long day walking around town

kids would LOVE this. tree house + swings + rock climbing wall.

megeve from the mountain top

kiss!

ok for this - i was just mucking around with the new canon.

the end!

Happy Father's Day!!

Hi dad, this post is dedicated to you... Happy Father's Day!
Thank you for always being there for me, mum and the boys...
We are very grateful to Allah for having you in our lives...
to love us through thick and thin... through good times and bad.
Please forgive us for all the times we have been naughty
and all the times when you were misuderstood.
We know that you only want the best for us all..
You are not only a great father, but also a great friend!
No one could be a better father to us...
Love you, dad.
See you soon! Hugs and kisses xoxox

39 secrets about yourself.

I found this 'note' thing my brother noodles filled out in his facebook... and since i'm bored out of my mind (while i wait for something to download on my msn), i decided to kill time by filling one out myself.

p/s: most of these things aren't even what i call as secrets... but yeah... if you're bored, you can read it too... cheers

1. Have you ever been asked out? yes
2. Where was your default picture (on facebook) taken? paris
3. What's your middle name? don't have one
4. Your current relationship status? neither married nor engaged :-)
5. Does your crush like you back? uhh yes, i think so
6. What is your current mood? bitchy. cos my back hurts and i got a splitting headache. hehehe kidding kidding. i'm content. don't ask me why. (nothin to do with anythin kinky okay)
7. What is the colour of the underwear you're wearing? blue with white stripes
8. What is the colour of the shirt you're wearing? not a shirt, but a dress. brown one.
9. Missing something? actually, i miss how good it felt riding my ninja... maybe cos right now i wanna sell the landrover. hehe
10. If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do? i wouldn't change a thing. everything happens for a reason.
11. If you must be an animal for a day, what? a cat. pissing all over the expensive couch. eat like there's no tomorrow. and scratch people i don't like. but then again, i do that now anyway (except the pissing on the couch bit) LOL
12. Ever had a near death experience? yes once. car accident... the 'what if' question came to mind.. a lot!
13. Something you do a lot? hibernate
14. The song stuck in your head? lily allen's 'fuck you very much'
15. Who did you copy and paste this from? my brother noodles
16. Name someone with the same birthday as you. a bloke named Azwa
17. When was the last time you cried? last night. over something utterly silly.
18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? nope.
19. If you could have one superpower, what would it be? read people's minds. or even better telepathically make them think what i want them to think... hehe. none of that psychic-i-know-what's-going-to-happen-next crap. cos you kinda get this skill anyways
20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? height and smile. a tall guy with perfectly straight white teeth... mmm gorgeous!
21. What do you usually order from Starbucks? some rasberry drink thing and a marble loaf.
22. What's your biggest secret? as if i would tell duhhhhh nice try. everyone has secrets...
23. Favourite colour? red and pink
24. Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows? no. but i still have episodes of akazukin cha cha on my hard drive, i donno why i even still have them! LOL
25. What's on your walls? pics of me and the people i love. and paintings.
26. What are you? human
27. Do you speak any other language? malay
28. What's your favourite smell? the smell of freshly washed bed sheets
29. Describe your life in one word. Incomplete. (I haven't done everything i wanna do yet)
30. Have you ever kissed in the rain? yes. then i got sick. what a downer.
31. What are you thinking about right now? 'damn, i just ate. why am i still hungry?' LOL
32. What should you be doing? some pending reports. but i'm like... nahhh. too lazy.
33. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry? a wannabe who thinks he's born on this earth to be a living God (refer to blog post below).
34. How often do you talk to God? not as often as i would like. i should talk to God everyday, but i always forget. unless i'm in big trouble... or need something. sigh i should talk to God often. will try harder.
35. Do you like working in the yard? nope. me and worms don't get along very well. kidding! no time really. my plants inside the house are already dead, i don't think i should kill all the plants outside too!
36. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want? Something cool. like Banks. or Powers. Austin Powers? hahaha well im happy with my first and last name.
37. Do you act differently around the person you like? yeah. but then i act like myself around the person i love. i think it's only natural, no? :-)
38. What is your natural hair colour? truly black.
39. Who was the last person to make you cry? someone with a name starting with the letter A. :-) but it's all good now. just a silly misunderstanding.

The Verdict.

Yes.. the forbidden fruit is always sweeter.
But how long can it keep you interested?

The Forbidden Fruit is always sweeter.

You want things that you can't have.. and you don't want it when it's not in demand. Could this be true? This week i'm putting this theory to the test. Do I want this thing that I can't have? especially when it's the total opposite of what i'm looking for or used to... i'm almost afraid to find out that it could be too good to be true.. at the same time, i can't help but think that all this could just very well be a wonderful dream. Then! if that's the case, i hope i don't ever wake up from it! LOL.

Things are getting interesting, indeed.

You're not all that.

I find it highly annoying when people bully you into making decisions that have no bearing what-so-ever on their own lives. We like to refer to these individuals as pushy, bossy, know-it-all... but my favourite one is 'wannabe'. Wannabes think the world revolves around them and think they are born on this earth to be Gods. Get real, bro.

As far as i'm concerned, you shouldn't give any advice when you are in no position to do so. Do you have the first hand experience, the knowledge and intelligence to do so? If you are so perfect in your perfect little world, then why are you still slaving for an organisation which thinks lesser of you than the rest of us mere mortals? You would be living the dream right now otherwise. Anyways, fine. You can give some advice on what you think should be done, but no way in hell should you force these thoughts onto others. I will take it if I think it's worth doing, and won't if i didnt think it was the right thing to do. and why do you have this look on your face when i tell you off? shocking. i've mentioned this in my blog a few times before too, if i do in fact make a mistake, then let it be a mistake for ME to make. we are humans after all.

Things are getting purtyy HOT in Geneva.. :-)

summer is here.. the weather is nice. the seductresses are on the prowl. it's hunting season... and mating season, for some. LOL. as for me, since i'm a good gurl and all... i'm going on holiday instead. looking forward to the castle-like hotels... cool pool... evening strolls... taking pictures... enjoying ice-cream... relaxing massages... maybe even paint.

just a few more days to go.